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Okay so we are on day 3 of our readalong AND THESE CHAPTERS HAVE OFFICIALLY KILLED ME. I'm just so SO sad right now I can't even.! SPOILER ALERT ! The following post contains spoilers for the chapters 12 to 16. So unless you’ve read them, DON’T PROCEED ! SPOILER ALERT !
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They killed Ivan. Oh god I'm not even sure how to process it. It was just so sudden and unexpected and I just almost screamed out loud. That stupid, sweet boy. And I cried more when Zash had to go bury his friend and then he just sat there rocking him and my heart broke. And Maria... I can't even begin to imagine the plethora of emotions she must be feeling now - sadness, guilt and just AHHHHH.
And the escape isn't even going to happen? I have HUGE respect for the family for turning down the offer to keep the Bolsheviks safe though. That kind of decision requires such a big heart and I'm just speechless (And this isn't fiction you know? IRL, Ex-tsar Nikolai truly denied help to keep the captors safe) Huge respect.
SO much happened so suddenly. Yakov Yurovsky. Oh my God, he knows Nastya's hiding something. He knows she took the doll. He's having their belongings searched. I am so scared. And the guards are gone! Zash is gone?? I feel exactly like Nastya at the end of chapter 12. Hope ebbing away.
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Let us just cry? What do you think is going to happen next?